the t.v has got to go!

oh, i so can't believe i am saying that! neither can my sports loving video game playing husband! i have been thinking about it and praying about it and struggling with it for some time. i really REALLY like it. so much so sometimes that i neglect my housework, husband, children, and most importantly, GOD! i know that, for the most part, i could be doing something more productive. i use the excuse that i am to tired to do anything else, i am busy nursing, i can't sleep, i really love that show, etc. etc. etc. well, i think i may have hit my t.v. bottom.

i am disgusted in myself. this past week i have seen a few minutes here and there of a popular soap opera that i have watched since i was 10 (or younger). i am almost 38. i had gotten myself completely weened from them for sometime, but in crept nursing/tiredness/satan. anyway, all week the network was advertising a BIG shock on friday. well, i HAD to see! i DVR'd thursday and fridays episodes because i couldn't be home to watch them (i have probably only ever dvr'd less than 5 things, and none of them were soap's!). i spent about 1.5 hours friday evening trying to catch up. we (the kids and i) had been to the zoo and 2 grocery stores that day. the kids had their nap in the car. we had left the house early and didn't arrive home until late afternoon. my oldest, he's 2, had dry cheerios and raisins for breakfast in the car on the way to the zoo. (he had snacks at the zoo which included a lot of cantaloupe.) he had the same thing for lunch when we left the zoo. i bought a new kind of cracker puff at the grocery which was his dinner combined w/some grapes (because i was catching up on my dvr'd shows). all of this to say that in the last 30 seconds of the show is when "A" something happened. i was SO mad at myself for wasting all of that time when i had SO much to do (bake 3 cakes and make & bake a batch of granola and do a load of laundry, not to mention a ton of normal other things). i was mad at myself for letting myself get sucked back in! there will probably be a "better" "more shocking" episode monday, BUT, i won't know anything about it. i am sure i have hit my t.v. bottom of disgust. thank you soap opera for being so predictable, and thank you God for not being so predictable.